Touched By An Idiot

fake tales of san francisco

2007-03-05T13:54:00.000-04:00

I feel so... not me lately.

yah.. depressed sounds like a good word.

but I don't know why.

well, maybe I do.

I think it's school, and the fact that I'm home sick. and the fact i cant go home for march break. thanks mom and dad...

and I think itis because I stress over the smallest of things. and I stress over the big ones not enough. i have enough money to due me for 3 months..

BARELY.

yippee....

so now I'm looking through the phone book for printing shops and what-not for a place I could possibly apply for. if I don't get something, I guess it's retail shit for me. or a lovely restaurant gig.

I hate dealing with people. manily because most of them are incompentant. or not english....

I don't have anything against foregniers... *fuck I can't spell* I just can't understand a damn thing they say, because of their accents. it's sad really... but I just can't... and sometimes I feel awful for it.

oh well.

but ya... if you see me sad looking.. and I say some bullshit that I'm "TIRED" it really means that somethings wrong, but I don't want to talk about it..

if I do, i'll come to you, if not... just.. let me be.

I need some me time... and I may come across as distance.. it's just me going through my phase thing... I do this a lot... not sure why though.. but it helps me.

well... I think it does.

and some things are starting to get to me...

I NEED A FUCKING BREAK....

and I can't go fucking anywheres...

FUCK.

and I need a new roomate soon..

I can't deal with Jody's bullshit anymore. nice person and all... but she needs a slap in the face of what reality is sometimes...

oh and I just looooove how she's having a fucking party here, and didn't even bother to ask me if I'm ok with it.

and I ask her all the time if she's ok with me having a party, whenever I do.

AND THIS IS MY APARTMENT FOR FUCK SAKES.

so I'm going to throw a party on *opps* the same day she does, and "forget" to tell her about it..

maybe she'll find out about it on facebook like I did.

weeeeee!

so I'm depressed and bitter. and maybe a tad bit broken on the inside.

yah, sounds about right...

I just want spring to come and to go home....

but that won't happen anytime soon.

yea for life.

Crime of the Century

2007-02-27T20:32:00.000-04:00

i think everyone can relate to this...

the one you love/like is the one that doesnt feel the same towards you; and the one who has feelings for you, you dont back...

its a visious cycle... and i want out.. now please....

and why am i so paraniod at times?? really though? sometimes i wish i wasnt so much like my grand-mother. pretty soon ill be taking pills to calm me down as well...

Whatever people say i am, thats what im not

2007-02-18T12:26:00.000-04:00

another weekend going by once again too quickly.

though i had a great weekend, which started on thrusday. birthday party at hunters and it was trivia night. holy crap, so much fun. and we had cake! joys.

friday night, house "cooling" party. oh my. what fun. going to miss that apartment. oh well.

then saturday night, movies (because i said so... which was really great, and made me hate movies even more, for making me wish my life was like a movie, and that i could fin true love like that. holy crap, fuck you movies, fuck you), then doolys (really fun! i love playing pool, despite the fact i cant really play all that well, but better then most), then a trip to Babas (a really cool band was playing, and wow, theyre really good. love their stuff).

all-in-all, this weekend was really good. and tonight, im going to finish it all off with homework! isnt that just lovely? i think so.

I Bet That You Look Good On The Dance Floor

2007-02-01T17:15:00.000-04:00

omgvalentinesdayiscomingsoon.... ihopeigetavalentine....

writing like that is hard work...

butireallydohopeido...

<3<3<3 luvs for my friends! cause they rock my socks! XD

Shoot the Runner

2007-01-28T22:34:00.000-04:00

fuck.

well this weekend was pretty good. started off with a date on friday night, to find out the guy is a bit wacked. then on saturday night, i had pre drinks with this guy im currently seeing... another brad. hahaha. brads... fuck. anyways, we watched the hockey game, and did some fun stuff. lol. then i went to the islander, i was pretty drunk. but it was fun. haha. jody was hitting on this gross old cop... oh my. chev was drunk, kelley almost got into a fight with 3 boys! oh my! hahah. wish i was there to see that. i probably would shot my mouth off. haha. yea for liquor. next weekend, maybe a party here??? who knows. i want one. want to invite brad to come over so everyone can meet. heeh. it would be fun! right???

well i guess thats it. i should finish my structure project for tomorrow. gaaaah..

2007-01-25T22:08:00.001-04:00

BOYS MAKE MY HEAD HURT.

that is all.

thanks, that was fun

2007-01-11T20:26:00.000-04:00

boys suck.

stupid boys.

omg! shoes.

hahaha.. ooh.. i kill myself. yah, boys suck.. haha... ooh.. what a confusing life i live! brad is all like, i want to be just friends so i can figure out what i want to do in life.. blah blah.. power to him, but i didnt like the jerking around bit. like, we're seeing each other, then he goes out with another girl.. the we fight, and all is well, then hes all like, im going out west, i cry, we say we love each other, hes out west, says he misses me, and loves me, comes home a month later, and says we should be just friends. thanks asshole. dont tell me shit, if nothing is going to become of it.

but then, just as that happens, an old guy friend of mine, comes back into my life, and maybe all is well again. annnd.. theres a cute boy living under me in the apartment. which is nice. i should "bump" into him sometime. haha.. call me boy crazy! it has its ups and downs, but all-in-all its fun, but then again, in kelleys words it can be like DEATH. yea boys.

and in other news today, i got an audition for a voice acting job doing a female voice for the animation company Trapeze. haha. i applied there, for animation, and where did that get me? it got me to where i am today, BACK IN SCHOOL. which i love! but still. maybe, this will get my foot in the door perhaps? i dont know, im not going to get my hopes up, ive been doing that too much lately, only to bring myself down 2 notches more. LIFE IS GRAND. oh i hope design gets me places. cause i really want to do soething with my art, and make some good money. oh, that would be lovely! and maybe get a nice place somewheres in the city of wherever.

sometimes i wish i lived a normal life, but then i just slap that bitch and tell her to shut up, cause i love all this insaneness, it makes life a bit more fun, despite all of the downfalls.

this is me not working on stuff i should be

2007-01-09T12:19:00.000-04:00

Firsts/Lasts

FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND:
Sharon MacKenzie - till she moved and we havent talked since.

FIRST SCHOOL:
West Pictou Elementry

FIRST CELL PHONE:
my pink one!

FIRST FUNERAL:
Grandfathers

FIRST PET:
Buddy, my black lab.

FIRST BIG TRIP:
Quebec....I need to get out more

FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH:
JTT. hahaha...

FIRST TIME OUT OF THE COUNTRY?:
NEVER....

FIRST JOB:
Eastern Sing Print... they own my soul...

FIRST FACEBOOK FRIEND:
uh.. you.

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS:

LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED:
jojo or pj...

LAST CAR RIDE:
when kelley drove me home. like always. id be dead without her.

LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
today.

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED:
the davinci code.

LAST FOOD YOU ATE:
tv dinner thinger and water.

LAST ITEM BOUGHT:
food.

LAST SHIRT WORN:
uuh.. a purple t-shirt

LAST PHONE CALL:
Brad.

LAST TEXT MESSAGE:
Pj.

LAST THING YOU TOUCHED:
uhh... this key borad...

LAST FUNERAL:
great aunt

LAST TIME AT THE MALL:
Saturday

LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING:
Saturday

LAST PERSON YOU SAW:
Kelley

LAST THING YOU DRANK:
Water

LAST PERSON THAT BROKE YOUR HEART:
Brad. hahaha.... =(

LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLY HAPPY?:
i cant remember when... haha.. how sad i am...

Gaaaah!!

2007-01-07T16:57:00.000-04:00

boys.. they hurt the mind and the heart.....

sometimes, they just plain out confuse the fuck out of me...

i have no idea whats going on anymore... and that sucks...

sometimes i feel like im being used... which sucks even more...

and then... sometimes, i feel like im on cloud number 9... which sucks when i come back down....

gaaaaah.. i dont like this at all....

i think i'll go back to bed....

WOOO!

2007-01-04T11:31:00.000-04:00

BRADS BACK!!!! i feel so happy.. ooh.. he surprised me!! he told me some of his friends were going over here to the bars.. and they may stop in.. so i was all like.. yah ok. annd and.. i wasnt excpeting him at all.. caus ei was talking to him online. and he was all like.. yah.. working today.. and stuff.. gaaah!!! then the friends came.. he wasnt there with them.. then there was a knock at my door. .so i go and look.. and no one was there.. then i looked down the hallway.. and he was there!!!! gaaaaah!! awww... in kelleys words "it made my heart go... OHH..." oh.. it did!!! i almost cried.. ahaha... but ooh.. it was the best!!! and stuff.. oooh.. i love him... but he only stayed for a bit, cuase he just got home and wanted to go out with his friends.. ooh.. i wouldve went out.. but i had class this morning.. though i couldve went out, cause the class was like what? 10 mins long.. and now i feel like death cause im sick.. ugh.. i thinkn its norwalk.. which is not cool.. anyways.. so yah.. brads back.. im happy and this weekend is going to be the weekend of delights!!! ooh.. yea!!!

shout out to chev cause its her birthday!!! happy birthday!!!

ooh..... my heart.... i think aprils in love.... for the first time ever..

Happy 2007!!

2007-01-02T14:55:00.000-04:00

holy shit its 2007!! i cant believe it.. its werid.. 2007! SEVEN!!! i can remeber when it was 2000!! now theres a 7!!! holy frig i feel old.

anyways.. christmas was fun! and new years was great as well! kelley and chev came over and it was good! we were drinking, eating and being merry! haha! and hopefully this weekend will be just as great!! 3 birthdays in one!! wooo!! shout out to PJ, cause today is his birthday! woo!

ooh.. its soo good to be back, though it feels as though only a weekend went by and not 2 weeks. lol.. good god! time passes by so fast when youre having fun!

The most wonderful time of the yeeeeeeaaaaar....

2006-12-25T22:05:00.000-04:00

well another christmas has come and gone, now onto the new year! craziness is all i can say about it. though it was a good time. open gifts at my parents place, then drive for 30 mins to my grandparents place to open more. WONDERFUL! and i got pestered by my uncle. which is ok. lots of food!!! turkey galore. and talk about the junk food!! gaaaaah... my tummy. and then tomorrow we're having a lebanese dinner at my grand parents place! cant wait!! gaaaah.. soo good. gonna leanr how to make it myself one of these days. maybe tomorrow. hopefully. and then we go home again! gaaah.. i love my grandparents.. theyre crazy, but i still love them. aaaahhhh... i got like a ton of gouache for christmas!! excited about it, kinda sad though... but still very enjoyable. annnd i got my mp3 player!! and its PINK!!! wooo! got some clothes.. and these kick ass fuzzy furry slippers!!! and some money.. and some things for my apartment... and these nifty lamps!! haha.. i got kitchen stuff.. i feel so old. but i love it!!

ahhhhh... great times. now everyone remember about the new years party iim having!! be there or be a lame ass!!! bring drinks!

i hope everyone had a great Christmas!!! see you in the new year!

wtf...O_o

2006-12-15T15:47:00.000-04:00

well last night was a great time! pre drinks at pjs place was a good ol' time. talking and getting drunk, and taking random pics are always fun. then me and kelley, being slow asses as we are, got stopped by some random crazy lady asking us for a toonie.. and then continued talking to us.. kelley was of no help, cause she kept talking to her!! gaaaah... and then she was saying something about being beat up by her bf/husband? anyways... kelley told her to get a bat, and the lady said she did that! hahaha.. oh dear lord...O_o so then kelley was all like, "GET A HAMMER AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM!!!" in her loudest voice possible of course. and then we ran away as soon as she turned around, for 2 blocks. wasnt that great?! ugh.. drunk... running out of shape, not a good mixture.

then after all that, we got to the bowling alley. fun! everyone was glowing! from the black light, and prob sweat. eww. haha. and then we all did shot of kalua?!? what.. i cant spell that, let alone drink it.. gross! the bowling part was fun though. but they only have 5 pins here! what!? 5 pins?? thats madness! we have 10 pins!! gahaha.. more things to hit with small hard balls! i got second place though on my team! cause i rock!

then after all that fun stuff, we decided to go to sandys. well wasnt that a great idea! damn im jealous of his place and all of the nifty things he has. bleh. got to see some of his sketch books, and well shit.. mine looks like crap compare to his old stuff when he was in college. and the funny part of going to sandys is we smoked up with our teacher. that makes this year awesome. haha.

so then, me and emily decided to go and get some chinese food. that was delightful. i was sooo stuffed! gaaah.. but it was worth it. that my friends was deffinitly one of the best night over here!

haha.. and now its time to go home, and chillax. though i will miss people terribly. even though its only going to be for 2 weeks, but still.

they say the people you meet in college, usually end up being your friends for life. well so far of my first college experince i can say i do have a few friends, that no matter where i go, they will always be there for me, as i for them. now meeting these crazy characters over here, i know itll be the same.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! <3

1/4 way done of graphic design

2006-12-12T17:08:00.000-04:00

that is freaking scary... thats im 1/4 way done of this course. it like flew by so fast. gaaah..

well anyways, i got my evaluation over and done with today. and it went well!! wooo! i have to up some things, but all in all, i did well, and the 72% i gave myself was lower than what i got, which is fantastic! now i have to take all of that stuff home... which is going to be insane.. haha. some of it will go back on my wall!

you guys are going to hate me for this... buuuuut, brad talked to me last night, and says he misses me a lot. and that he really does love me, and cant wait for the summer. heehee!

pfffffttt

2006-12-11T17:55:00.000-04:00

i didnt have my evaluation today... looks like ill be getting up early for tomorrow. gaah. i was hoping id have no more early morning till i come back here. oh well, things could be worse. like, i could suck really bad at everything, and like, be sent back home. but that will never happen. haa.
im going to miss it here during the holidays. cause i was thinking today how its going to suck going home and be away from everyone. which is weird. i like living on my own. its nice. i do miss my family, and the very few friends i have at home. gaaah... it should be fun though! i get to see my family i havent seen since like, last Christmas, and the summer, and i get to go visit people, and do the traditional thing we always do every christmas for the past 20 years, and thats going to val and regs place for christmas eve. i cant wait! i think this year im more excited about going there, than christmas day itself. i get to go out and drink with the boys! haha! they think its funny that i drink now. oooh.. theyre so silly, my older bros. i wonder if they will go out to the bars this year, thatd be cool. hrrm... i should ask them. and then we get to go home, open one gift, which is a christmas ornament like every year. christmas day is fun. we open everything, make a mess, get breakfast, and then go to my grandparents house, and make another mess. teehee! im excited.

this year im having myself a new years party. hopefully people can make it. it will be my first new years party, ever. kinda sad that ive never been to one let alone have one. so yah, excited!! you people best be coming. im thinking of maybe people bring some like food, so it could almost be like a pot-luck thinger... but then again.. maybe not.. i dunno. maybe just munchies? hrrmmm.. maybe. depends on how many people come. cant wait!

my god.. im bored.. having nothing due is nice, but already its driving me nuts cause i have nothing to do, maybe after my evaluation ill go shopping. yah... that sounds good. =) shopping is always fun.

things NOT to paint with gouache...

2006-12-11T00:20:00.000-04:00

Sunsets.... never EVER do a sunset in gouache.. unless you want to go insane... i think sandy is going to kill me for it... at least it doesnt look really painterly like.

also another thing not to do a day before your project is due, change your mind of what youre doing at 7pm... not such a good move on that one. and then to think.. OOOO pretty sunset!!! lets do that!!! gawhahaa.... *bang*

some good news.. brad called me again last night to see if i remembered him calling me the night before (cause i was a tad bit drunk), and just to tell me again that he misses me... HOW FREAKING CUTE IS THAT!? i think that is the only thing that gets me through the day, is talking to him. gaaah... im a sap.. and well my friends get me through the day as well. cause thats the power of FRIENDSHIP!

well.. im back here

2006-12-09T18:03:00.000-04:00

havent been on blogger for like a million years.. back on it cause, i now know people on this site. hahaha... this is silly. so yah!! i hope you guys are happy i reactivated this space. the things i do. gawh.

so nothing much going on in my life... school is almost done for the holidays, which is grand! i get to go home and see my family. and... friends? fuck you pictou county. i wish my friends lived closer to me.. maybe ill go to halifax for a day, and see some of them. why do you guys live so far away??? ugh... and now im going home for 2 weeks, ill be missing my islander friends. speaking of missing.. i miss brad. awww... and he misses me. i think thats awesome. i wish he wouldve stayed until after Christmas before going out west. oh well. he best be coming home before my birthday!

well i hope i do well in my evaluation on Tuesday... i hate doing this shit.. "youre good at this, but not at this, youre weakest point is this... blah blah blah.. work on this during the holiday... " oh what fun! oh graphic design, how i love you. waaaaaaay better than animation.

i think thats it, thats all im writing for a bit. maybe.. or maybe ill try to write something in it every day like i tryed on my live journal account... and my many other accounts.. NO MORE ACCOUNTS ON THINGS!!!! i have too many... gaawwwh....