I feel so... not me lately.
yah.. depressed sounds like a good word.
but I don't know why.
well, maybe I do.
I think it's school, and the fact that I'm home sick. and the fact i cant go home for march break. thanks mom and dad...
and I think itis because I stress over the smallest of things. and I stress over the big ones not enough. i have enough money to due me for 3 months..
BARELY.
yippee....
so now I'm looking through the phone book for printing shops and what-not for a place I could possibly apply for. if I don't get something, I guess it's retail shit for me. or a lovely restaurant gig.
I hate dealing with people. manily because most of them are incompentant. or not english....
I don't have anything against foregniers... *fuck I can't spell* I just can't understand a damn thing they say, because of their accents. it's sad really... but I just can't... and sometimes I feel awful for it.
oh well.
but ya... if you see me sad looking.. and I say some bullshit that I'm "TIRED" it really means that somethings wrong, but I don't want to talk about it..
if I do, i'll come to you, if not... just.. let me be.
I need some me time... and I may come across as distance.. it's just me going through my phase thing... I do this a lot... not sure why though.. but it helps me.
well... I think it does.
and some things are starting to get to me...
I NEED A FUCKING BREAK....
and I can't go fucking anywheres...
FUCK.
and I need a new roomate soon..
I can't deal with Jody's bullshit anymore. nice person and all... but she needs a slap in the face of what reality is sometimes...
oh and I just looooove how she's having a fucking party here, and didn't even bother to ask me if I'm ok with it.
and I ask her all the time if she's ok with me having a party, whenever I do.
AND THIS IS MY APARTMENT FOR FUCK SAKES.
so I'm going to throw a party on *opps* the same day she does, and "forget" to tell her about it..
maybe she'll find out about it on facebook like I did.
weeeeee!
so I'm depressed and bitter. and maybe a tad bit broken on the inside.
yah, sounds about right...
I just want spring to come and to go home....
but that won't happen anytime soon.
yea for life.
Monday, March 05, 2007
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